its like i cant stop hearing whats within

so its been awhile. i know, i allowed myself to get busy with the stupid and mundane things. im sitting in my room and thinking of how i got here; to this point in my life. ya know that point when you look back and say wow. i know im young and people that are older than me will probably find humor in this but oh well. ya know i remember i was like four or something and up in wisconsin i made a leaf pile in the shape of the batmobile- freaking awesome. i remember when i was five my dad's mom getting cancer for the second time and dying. I remember asking God into my life. i remember my parents sitting my sister and i down and telling us we were moving to springfield mo. i remember my teacher in second graded telling me to shut up when i talked about adam and eve being the first humans. i remember the first time i meet my best friend tyler in kids church- he came up to me because i sat on the girls side with my sister since i was new and knew no one, he explained how they didnt sit boys and girls on the same side and he offered for me to sit by him- 11 years later we are closer than brothers. I remember my first day at new covenant, misses ditomasie's third grade. i remember being picked on thru out elementary school. summer before my seventh grade my sister and i went on a trip around the west coast with my grandpa and  grandmother(moms side)- the best trip with them by far, i still think about that trip all the time. seventh grade started and i was five ft. and two inches- i walked out five ft. nine inches- seven inch growth spurt during the school, sorry mom and dad for the hassle of  getting new clothes like every week cause i kept growing. one day during the school year i saw my parents car at the school, it was odd because it was the middle of the day and i knew what had happened; grandma had died. i remember not ever dealing with it. then high school came. man that was a crazy time. i made friends, lost others, and found myself in places i never thought i would. i remember the pain that i was going thru and not telling anyone. stupidity at its finest i would say. then on summer my grandpa, who was one of my best friends, got sick. no i thought it was nothing-by the time he died he had 8 major heart attacks and three minor ones- my grandpa the hard a. he died on friday, was buried sunday, and the next day my sister and i left for camp in colorado. i barely spoke before the conference. then God came in that moment and called me to something that only could happen with him. so i left my old life of sin behind me, that person was no longer me. january of '08 the last time i hurt myself.  then graduation came, and went. just like high school- ya blink and ya miss it. august came and i moved out into the world of dorm life and college. then first semester came and went. i made new friends and said goodbye to old ones. today i am one year out and never felt better about myself, who i am or where i am at in life. that is all stuff i have been thru that has helped shape me as the young man that i am but that stuff doesnt define me necessarily.

 today is a new day, new beginning, a fresh start, you can change some ones life, you can pick up that hobby you have always wanted to do, you can go tell the person you love how much they mean to you, you can go help in whatever needs to be helped, you can bring a smile to some ones face - how will you spend today?